Anio-philautia

I am writing this in tears  I am in tears because I am realizing how much damage is going on around me because I thought I have healed  I honestly just realized I'm not, the hurt from my previous relationships is starting to manifest because I've been burying all of it and now it's starting to show it self  I am ruining a good thing because I lied to myself and said that I've healed but I've not because my last heart break awakened everything else that was buried  I was the most loving and caring person ever, I forgave a lot and saying I am sorry was never the hardest the thing to do but now it is cause I apologized to all the wrong people and now when it's time for me to apologize to the one person who deserves it I can't, how can I be so cruel to the one person in this world that has decided to show me unconditional love, why am I projecting my anger and fury towards him, I lied and said I've healed but I definitely have not I've made l...

Firstly allowing love to find you is a real thing  And also people need to understand that people in abusive relationships whether it's emotional or physical need to realize that they being abused in their own, so just show your love and support and that will give them the strength to leave. I am writing this post today not as a victim but a survivor of emotional abuse, today marks 10 months of being free from that, it took so much leaving that relationship bit I'm glad I did because I would have lost a whole lot more.   Both females and males need to note that  Manipulation  Gaslighting  And having your concerns dismissed, is toxic and abusive, you are allowed to express yourself and your concerns must be dealt with. Anyway this is my story of how love found me and not my survival  God has granted me another chance at love, pure love at that, when I had met my current partner, the love of my life, I had not fully healed from my previous relatio...