an end to a beautiful thing

The love I had found has come to an end 

I'm writing this with a broken heart because what I though would be a forever has come to an end and I am left confused but I hope to find answers some day 

I know it would be a bit questionable for me to confused about a my own break up 

But wouldn't you be if you spent the whole day with someone and as soon you get home you receive a messages that things are over, and that is why I'm confused 

I am writing this two days after the break up 

And I know I'm expected to be devastated but I'm not because God answered my prayer, I knew what I was doing when I prayed about this relationship and asked God that he gives me a sign if I should stay and give Mr the strength to accept and leave and that is what God has done for me 

And don't get me wrong, I am hurt that this has ended because the love was there and I expected this person to stay with me forever 

I pray for clarity, closure and healing and peace 

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