veiled trauma

It has been so long since I've been here so firstly greetings my people 😊

I have written a piece about healing before and about healing completely and I just realized that there is no such, rather the pain is veiled and each and every inch of you becomes immune to all kinds of the pain.

My personal lesson is that pain from broken friendships affects your romantic relationship and same with romantic relationships, they affect your platonic relationships

I am writing this with tears again in my heart, I am angry at myself for allowing another person control me even thought inhad left them to break free from their control, 11 months of trying to break free from their bandage even though they are not physically present, maybe putting a timeliness on my healing is the reason I am here 

So if I refuse to have new friends and meet new people bare with me as It might be for your own good, I wouldn't want to allow my broken heart to bleed onto to you, that might just get too messy as this broken heart could you too and leave even bigger wounds 

Lesson from this experience though is that don't falk in love but instead be inlove, things that fall break when not caught, especially if they fall into clumsy hands 

Ps:Zenande Pama ♥️

Everything I encounter is just triggering, from friends to man pursuing, I desire to trust again, love again and open my heart

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